Saturday, November 12, 2016

I Finally Slept... You?

Last night I had plans to go to a board-gaming gathering of friends. Somewhere after an early dinner, I felt my body start to crash. It's been several days since I slept well, and while I really, really wanted to go to do something fun and get hugs and support from likeminded people I decided it was sincerely SAFER for me to stay home.

I took a long, hot bath. I found a book on my Kindle to read.

I slept for almost 12 hours.

One of the things that has been killing me is this profound sense of helplessness. Me and many of my friends don't know what we can even do. I don't have a lot of money to give to organizations, but I did have a little in my PayPal account and so I made a donation to the Southern Poverty Law Center yesterday. I've determined that I need to find a local progressive organization and volunteer my time and energy this year. I've had several people offer to help me get back into my martial arts, and I'm going to take them up on it because I need to take care of my body, too.

But, the other thing that really, surprisingly helped was reading. Being able to find something that took my mind away from my fears and my anger and my hopelessness was profoundly helpful, soothing. So I feel like, even as I take to the streets, I can't forget art. Art needs to be consumed/enjoyed, but it also needs to continue to be produced. Now, I feel, more than ever.

This next week I'm going to find a place to volunteer and I'm going to write.

How are you doing?

Thursday, November 10, 2016

Random Acts of Violence

Last night I had a reading at Magers & Quinn in Uptown. I kind of wanted to bail on the whole thing, of course. Like a lot of people I know, I spent much of yesterday breaking out into uncontrolled sobbing. But, we were talking about Women in Science Fiction and I'd made a promise. Moreover, the bookstore had made a concerted effort to have my books available and so I didn't want to let anyone down.

I didn't think anyone would come. Most of us are so shattered and the topic seemed so... I mean, as I was telling friends of mine earlier, I was feeling so beaten down that I was afraid that all I would manage was to burst into tears an say, "Why bother!? Misogyny won!" But, again, I thought, no, this is important. I need to do this. Besides, it's just a reading. If no one comes we can go to the bar and cry.

But people came.

I was supposed to meet my fellow panelists early at a nearby restaurant, but with traffic, my mood, and everything else, I didn't manage it. So I ended up at Magers & Quinn early and watched people come in. One of the first was a friend of mine from fandom, Sybil, who was still leaking tears as she talked about friends of hers who were seriously considering suicide. I had no words. We all feel so hopeless. But, I offered a hug and my sympathy.

By the time we started, the house was actually packed. It was standing room only as we started to tentatively talk about what it's like being a woman writing in a predominantly male dominated field. I talked about my added issues as a queer writer. We were sharing "war stories."

Out of the blue, in the back of the audience sharp words were exchanged. A chair went sliding. Someone got shoved into the stacks. I heard a sickening, wet-crunch of a punch being thrown. Everyone was so shocked it took a minute to even understand what was happening, but then people dialed 9-1-1, some guys rushed back to break up the violence. The aggressors stalked out with threats of "we'll see you outside." To which we responded, with, "No, we're calling the cops." No one knows what started it. Maybe a fight over a chair offered? Maybe thugs looking for PoC to beat up on? But the aggressors didn't seem particularly white (I would have said they were Hispanic, but they did not read as white, regardless), and they punched a white guy....? Were they looking for a white guy to hit (weird place given that everyone there were allies and the room was very much dominated by women and several other PoCs, including the victim's wife and children)? What hell happened? It was crazy. Beyond crazy to surreal.

I have never attended a reading/panel discussion that broke out into violence before in my life. I can only assume that this random violence was the angry version of my random tears. Something uncontrollable, volatile, hopeless. It might have been an attack on PoCs/queers/women, but what weird place to go looking for us! Why chose a bookstore when Uptown is full of taverns and clubs?

But what is even more astounding to me is that the reading went on.

After the aggressors stalked out, the cops called, the victim tended to... we went on. People stayed. No only did they stay, but we managed to talk about why what we're doing is important. People listened, people spoke, people asked questions... I cried randomly once, but we also managed--AFTER ALL THAT--to laugh, all of us, together.

I can't even begin to really process or understand what happened, but, despite how awful it was, we went on, you know? One step at time. One moment at a time. And we found a way to survive. More than that, we survived and thrived, together.

Friday, November 04, 2016

Event: November 9 at 7 pm at Magers & Quinn

If you're looking for something to do the day after the elections, maybe something to compel you to pull yourself from your blanket fort, you can come and see me at Magers & Quinn.

At 7 pm on Wednesday, Nov 9, I will be part of a panel discussion on women in SF/F. 

Come and see me! There will be other authors there such as Kelly Barnhill, Victorya Chase, and Abra Staffin-Wiebe!

Monday, October 31, 2016

New Anthology

My short story "Everything in Its Place" is collected in a new anthology by Calumet Press: Boundaries Without...



Wednesday, October 05, 2016

Gaylaxicon Schedule

FRIDAY, OCT 7

9: 30 PM -- Writing Romance and Erotica, Courtyard 1


SATURDAY, OCT 8

10:30 PM -- Yaoi/Yuri: Manga for Queers, Terrace 4
12:00 AM -- Midnight Slash, 1-3 Main stage


SUNDAY, OCT 9

11:00 AM -- Queering Canon, Courtyard 1
3:30 PM -- LGBTQ marriage and families, Courtyard 1

Info on Gaylaxicon can be found here: http://www.gaylaxicon2016.org

Sunday, August 07, 2016

Fallen Host Audio Book

I'm continuing to have ACX voice actor, Jack Evans, read and record my science fiction AngeLINK series.  They've just finished the second book, Fallen Host, which is now available for purchase at Audible, or wherever fine audiobooks are sold: http://www.audible.com/pd/Sci-Fi-Fantasy/Fallen-Host-Audiobook/B01JQCXSW4



Wednesday, August 03, 2016

WorldCON Schedule

Since all the cool kids are posting theirs, here's my MidAmericaCon II / WorldCON schedule:

Wednesday Aug 17, 2016
7:00 PM
The Interstices of Historical and Fanfiction 1 hour | 7:00 PM - 8:00 PM, Kansas City Convention Center, 2204
Lyda Morehouse | Dr. Heather Urbanski (Fitchburg State University) | Ms Sumana Harihareswara | Teresa Nielsen Hayden
Historical fiction is a work of literature, comic, film, or television program set in the past. Fanfiction is a work of fiction produced by fans for fans, using famous people or source texts as their inspiration. Frequently the worlds overlap. Let's discuss the overlaps, benefits, and pitfalls of working in these genres. The overlaps include writing fanfiction about historical fiction, setting fanfiction in an alternative universe by placing the narrative in a different historical era, fanworks about real-life historical figures (Historical RPF), or historical fanworks -- any fanwork set in the past.

Thursday Aug 18, 2016
12:00 PM
What is a Fan Writer? 1 hour | 12:00 PM - 1:00 PM, Kansas City Convention Center, 2206
Lyda Morehouse | Rich Lynch | Mr. Guy Lillian | Foz Meadows | Goldeen Ogawa | Teresa Nielsen Hayden
What we mean when we say: Fan Writer. Is it a professional writer doing some work for free? Is it a way of life? Some say that the internet made us all fan writers. What does (and doesn't) this term encompass, is it a tradition, and how has the interpretation changed over the years?

Thursday Aug 18, 2016
10:00 PM
Anime Stories to Watch in the Dark 1 hour | 10:00 PM -11:00 PM, Kansas City Convention Center, 2504B
Lyda Morehouse | Mr. John Wiswell
When one hears "anime", horror may not be the first thing to come to mind. This panel might change that. Don't be scared, and join us as we explore horror in anime.

Friday Aug 19, 2016
11:00 AM
Living in a Cyberpunk Society 1 hour | 11:00 AM -12:00 PM, Kansas City Convention Center, 2208
Catherine Lundoff | Takayuki Tatsumi | Lyda Morehouse | Allan Dyen-Shapiro | Ms Pat Cadigan
We may not be able to jack in directly, but we are part of the Cyberfuture. When technology thrives but society decays, seemingly dystopic worlds arise. To what extent is our world a cyberpunk universe and what more can we expect to happen to take us there?

Friday Aug 19, 2016
1:00 PM
Autographing: Jeanette Epps, Alex Jablokow, Lyda Morehouse, Lawrence M. Schoen, Mary A. Turzillo 1 hour | 1:00 PM - 2:00 PM, Kansas City Convention Center, Autographing Space
Jeanette Epps | Alex Jablokow | Lyda Morehouse | Dr. Lawrence M. Schoen | Dr. Mary A. Turzillo Ph.D.

Saturday Aug 20, 2016
10:00 AM
Complexity of Character: Coming Out in Teen Spec Fic 1 hour | 10:00 AM -11:00 AM, Kansas City Convention Center, 3501B
Catherine Lundoff | Mark Oshiro (Mark Does Stuff) | Lyda Morehouse | Jaylee James
Young adult speculative fiction is doing a fairly good job of featuring a diverse and varied cast of characters, but books that feature LGBT, asexual, and nonbinary characters are still not always easy to find. Let’s talk about what books and characters are out there, and what themes and identities are still underrepresented in YA SF? What challenges do spec fic authors face when writing and publishing books about teen sexuality and love? Beyond the main characters, what roles do the secondary and tertiary characters play in helping to advance the conversation about teen sexuality?

Saturday Aug 20, 2016
12:00 PM
Comics on the Small Screen 1 hour | 12:00 PM - 1:00 PM, Kansas City Convention Center, 2503B
Terrence Miltner | Melissa F. Olson | Pete Balestrieri (University of Iowa) | Mr Lee Harris | Lyda Morehouse
From Batman in the 60s to The Incredible Hulk in the 70s to The Flash, Jessica Jones and Supergirl, we do love our superheroes on the box. But why do some comic heroes make a successful transition to the small screen and others tank on arrival, or even before?

Saturday Aug 20, 2016
1:00 PM
Representation in Comic Books: From Absences to Affirmatives 1 hour | 1:00 PM - 2:00 PM, Kansas City Convention Center, 3501B
Anna Raftery (TAFF) | Ms Sumana Harihareswara | Lyda Morehouse | Bill Campbell (Rosarium Publishing)
Bitch Planet gives us a larger woman who is proud of her body, the Lumberjanes show queer teenage romance, Hawkeye is deaf, and yet Oracle was ejected from her wheelchair and became Batgirl again, echoed in the TV series Arrow, where Felicity Smoak was 'fixed' by science. Our panel discusses representation within comics, where we are succeeding, how representation is moving forward, and where it still needs to avoid harmful stereotyping, assumptions or tokenism.

Saturday Aug 20, 2016
5:00 PM
Yaoi and Yuri: Japanese Graphic Romance 1 hour | 5:00 PM - 6:00 PM, Kansas City Convention Center, 2205
Lyda Morehouse | Lauren Schiller | Jaylee James
*The nature of this session may result in adult themes being discussed.*
Fans of manga, graphic novels, romances, and LGBT characters – come learn about yaoi and yuri; terms for manga about m/m and f/f romance, respectively. This introductory session discusses where you should start. We also discuss some of the debates around the representation of gay characters in these comics, and the wider impact of these manga.